Today is such a hard day. The worst day of the year by far. I hate when my family argues, and me and my mom just end up crying. I miss my dad and I wish he would just come home from work because he is the glue to our family and we fall apart without him. I love my two brothers so, so much, but I hate when the fight. This hurts so much. I don’t know where else to vent or who else to vent to, because if I put it on Twitter, everyone from school will see. I don’t want to be sad. I don’t want my family to fall apart. And I don’t want to be crying. I need to be strong for my nephews and niece. It was just awful.
My brothers were arguing because my dad is basically out of a job, and we are behind on our house payment which is around $1000 a month. My oldest brother griped out my other brother for not helping us out, because him and his wife and two kids live with us, and while they were screaming at each other, me and my mom were just watching and trying to get them to stop. It just broke my heart because my nephew looks at me and goes, “Valerie, why is grandma crying?” I don’t want them to grow up like that. He’s 4 years old. Of course my immediate reaction is to bring him into my bedroom and let him play games on my phone to distract him. I just don’t want them to remember this.
Oh my god. Today just hurts so much.
